Guilty .

So much happened last night a lot of wrong shit. When I look back on it, I, as in me, myself, and I, was COMPLETELY wrong. I should have never handled the situation like I did. I've never been place in that position and as it happened, I was frozen. Stuck like the white girls in horror films. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. I was wrong for not pushing forward in the situation because their numbers were greater than ours. I should have know what the outcome would be but it was so surreal, it felt as though it wasn't even happening. I completely will take full responsibility for why last night ended the way it did. I should've snapped out of my trance. Now I lost a friend because I wasn't being much of one last night.

Been Awhile

I been so busy. I just came around to post exactly how I feel about someone in my life right now. It's word for word how I feel. I'm not a huge Beyonce fan but she hit me on the money.

Monokini With A Concussion .

Who else in the world do you know that can be this sexy fresh out the hospital lol. I'm kidding. I was on the phone with my friend Krissy the entire time. I was struggling with taking certain shots and some are blurry but oh well. I only took shots to show how cute my new swim suit I ordered was. It's my summer so I'm going to be be sexy Dammit! lol. Tell me what you think!!!

Me In The Hospital .

I found a video I did when I was in the hospital in the bed. Sorry the camera was so shaky. It's because my hands weren't working right at the moment. But you can see how bad I look lol.

At The Hospital 5/31/09 - 6/2/09

So I was at work and a metal thing fell on me and hit me in my head and left shoulder. I was down for the count ... Then I was taken to the hospital and was admitted .... I couldn't even walk ... I'm still wobbly now but I'm managing ... I had 2 I.V's and 4 viles of blood drawn so I have a total of 3 wholes in my arms and I look like a heroin addict. They also gave me steroids for my strength and I have a SPLITTING headache. Oh did I mention, I was given a CAT Scan, a MRI, an EEG, and an X-ray???!?!?

PICTURES ANYONE????
See All The Pictures on my myspace here.

Dating .

So I'm not ready to be in a relationship because of situations that recently happened I put my heart out to someone and I got burned so I'm starting over and I've been dating but more on a friendly level. I need to get over the demons of my past that's why I decided to jump on the dating wagon. A good friend (his name is A.R.) had me listen to this song I now cherish called "Where Did It Go Wrong" by Joe Budden. That song actually gave me an epiphany. So now, I have been casually dating for a while. Tonight will be my 5th date since the falling out with Brandon and ironically, this date is with Brandon. We're starting from scratch and taking it in the slow lane because I'm not about to be hurt again so easily because half of me let him go. I've given him two strikes and on the third he's going to be out.

Well My Apology To Senia .

I still dislike your negative attitude towards almost everything that I do. I don't dislike you as a person and I do feel I need to give you an apology because I guess Keisha (some hatin ass girl I don't even know, that's a friend of Berry), was the one who posted that picture not you so I apologize for that.

So when everyone who watches the video substitute Senia's name for Keisha's name.

Oh and Keisha, THANK YOU! for being that much of a hater and caring about me SO much to take time out to take my picture and post it places. Your taking time out of your nonexistent life to promote my beauty. So thank you. Berry told me that you didn't like me. She even told me how you did it and how it all fell in place lol. It's so funny because I didn't even know you existed. So you had feelings for me and I didn't even know your were alive. Lol, that's so funny to me.

Naked Truth .

So there a picture that I took and showed a few friends but a "hater" got their hands on it and posted it on porno sites. Let's get this straight it's an all natural shot not a playboy picture it's me showing me inner and outer beauty. Not trying to get some sick pervert off. Get that straight you jealous bitch.

Here's the picture I was refering to in the above Vlog. I don't think it is at all "porno-like" or sluttish. I think it's a nice nude shot. Not sexy just natural. Click it to enlarge it.

Heart Burn .

The love I have to give conquers all. My heart may be selfish and greedy but don’t fault me for wanting to be with you and love you. If that overwhelms you then inform me of your nonexistent love and allow me to move on, rather than you misleading me allowing myself to believe you actually care. I just want a real loving, caring man who understands me. If you hear me say “I love you” then don’t abandon that or pawn it off as nothing. My heart can’t take being in love without love in return. Being in love alone is the hardest punishment anyone will ever see. It’s a prison you sometimes can’t escape. So, please don’t capture me into that prison of love.You didn’t respond to my heart calling for you. Now it’s left unattended waiting for the next unsuspecting man to capture it. “I love too hard” some say but my body and soul can’t help it. It’s a second nature and it’s a curse. I’m patiently waiting for that to prove to be a blessing just once in my lifetime. It’s not heartbreak, it’s more like heartburn. It’s a hard unexpected blow to the heart.

Jeremih .

I know I'm probably late with the Jeremih train that took off but I just recently got on. I don't usually like new artists but I so love Jeremih's Birthday Sex song. In the midst of replaying the Birthday Sex song (and the remix with Pretty Ricky), I started to love my ride. I literally listen to this song about 5 times a day. I'm in the midst of putting it on a CD for my truck lol.

Here's The Song "My Ride"